Sunday, October 22, 2017
Love doesn't have a second hand. Love doesn't tell time or predict the future. Love is a result of a series of endless abbreviated experiences. Love is a prosperous vehicle some are fortunate enough to experience the short ride through life. I have very few pictures of me and my dad that made it through the "Lewis and Clark" adventures of my life. Now, looking back on old photos, like scarce rationing, my eyes sore through old faded pixels for missed details like a hawk 15,000 feet looking down for prey. I remember the shoes I wore that day and how tight they felt. I needed a shoe horn to squeeze them onto my size 5 1/2 feet. The blue sky, now faded and remembering I needed help putting on my tie. My head rested on my Dad's inside shoulder, the smell of Paco Rabanne as he reached around my neck tucking my tie into my starched collar. I would do that for Cason 25 years later and now understand that was a pretty special moment for my dad too. I’m glad I was able to give that to him, like Cason gave to me. A feeling of love, a powerful connection that can never be severed.
All of this was initiated by one photograph I randomly came across this morning, bringing me back in time 25 years! LOVE is not just a word but the only vehicle that transcends. I hope someday my kids will understand that the circle of life is never closed but continuously open.
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
"NO TITLE- NO INTERPRETATION"
Humanity is judged by the height of self awareness of feeling alive. Humanity is living. Living is innate, subconscious and effortless. Understanding this beautiful significance can sometimes be socially hijacked by experiences and interpretation.
What if life was not what you thought? Nothing like what we were taught or understood life to be. Throughout the course of human exisitance, not time, the foundation of humanity will never change, morph or evolve. The basic human math will always remain the same. It's people that change, not science.
The foundation of human interpretation slowly fades our own humanity, evolving and changing our understanding and grasp of human math; to which we base our existence. Self absorbed undertones of egotistical interpretations; we are defeated by our own true enemy….
This is the path; our “test” - to remain faithful to our own foundation of humanity. To navigate through the white water of our minds to remain hopeful, loving and compassionate in a way that is both subconscious and effortless; regardless of experience and interpetation.
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Thursday, September 19, 2013
Unconditional Love
After 4 days , MommyYo returns from LA tonight!!!! There are no words to describe how much she was missed!!! After these 4 days, I’m a different man.
Before work, and before Mia woke up to serve me and Cason our daily morning beat down with a side of kicks and little baby hand slaps …. Cason and I sat quietly on the couch watching some cartoon on the cartoon network. Within 3 min there was a “conflict” between two characters. Shortly into this conflict the word “love” was brought up by one of these characters. BAM!....I realized more today than ever that Love is a feeling not an emotion; to which love can only than be truly unconditional.
Love is not meant to be emotionalized, but felt without translation; which is hard to separate, especially since we been taught this our entire lives. After 4 days, I can do it because both my kids are still alive!! … and I’m a better man because of it. Watching this cartoon and thinking of the last few days, I realized Love should never get in the way of anything we say or do/want to do and so no conflict should ever arise or stem from any feeling of love; if it is truly coming from an unconditional “place”. If at any point screaming occurs or a fight erupts I know emotion has set in….
I love my kids and wife unconditionally otherwise all the kicking, screaming, yelling, pushing, not sharing ( and that’s just Pastina ;p)) would result in me locking my kids in a closet and me being that “screaming dad’ who drifts slowly away and OUT OF REALITY… It’s emotion that ruin’s everything; which is why Love cannot be an emotion. The hard part is not only teaching Cason how to separate the fine line between love and emotion, without turning him into a serial killer, but to also disassociate my own involuntary human response that was laser beamed into my mind back in the Josie and the Pussy Cat days. After these last 4 days, I believe I’m on my way….
To love unconditionally, you have to take emotion out of the equation. How can anything so beautiful, such as love, be rooted to something as volatile as a passing emotion. To “love unconditionally” is not just some saying you read on a tombstone or something you hear during a wedding speech- it’s a life goal that comes with practice, patience and awareness.
Welcome Home MommyYo! We miss and love you unconditionally.
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Tuesday, March 5, 2013
"I Want to Fart on People Everywhere" LittleYO
After learning to tilt a cheek on people when they're not
looking...MommyYo steps in and tries to stop this behavior. LittleYo
gets very upset. His reply "I want to fart on people everywhere..cause
its funny me". Amen, LittleYO, Amen! Its funny to me too buddy!
This video is too good not to post. How do I disagree? How do I explain that it is funny but not allowed?? How is something that is funny not allowed? Ive been trying to answer that question my entire life. Now, I could stand up for LittleYO's right to fart on people - but as you can see, MommyYO quickly recognized my internal battle on how to approach this one and knew better to take the lead. She says to me "Don't you say or do anything, I will handle this one".
This video is a moment in history that will potentially have changed the course of LittleYO's entire future. For good or for worse? We shall see...I will always look back on this post and know if LittleYO someday ends up a teacher, MommyYO is too blame. <JOKE TEACHERS> JOKE! ITS - A- JOKE!- Teachers are Amazing!
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This video is too good not to post. How do I disagree? How do I explain that it is funny but not allowed?? How is something that is funny not allowed? Ive been trying to answer that question my entire life. Now, I could stand up for LittleYO's right to fart on people - but as you can see, MommyYO quickly recognized my internal battle on how to approach this one and knew better to take the lead. She says to me "Don't you say or do anything, I will handle this one".
This video is a moment in history that will potentially have changed the course of LittleYO's entire future. For good or for worse? We shall see...I will always look back on this post and know if LittleYO someday ends up a teacher, MommyYO is too blame. <JOKE TEACHERS> JOKE! ITS - A- JOKE!- Teachers are Amazing!
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Friday, February 22, 2013
"Do as I say and NOT as I do"
"Do as I say and NOT as I do"... its a familiar saying. I think everyone has heard it before and might have even said it! At least once. Its scary to think that this statement has some vocal force winds behind it to where people repeat it over-and-over through generations. I remember my Mom saying it and now I am! Until now...
I remember the first time I heard my mom say to me "Do as I say, not as I do", because it took me a almost five minutes to figure out what she was talking about. Now a DaddyYO, here I am listening to another mother in the store say it to her kid just one day after I said it to LittleYo.
When did WORDS lose the power of intent? Over the generations words have slowly evolved into just words; a vocal backtrack to human speech with no meaning. Maybe that's why I dont trust anything anyone says! Parents (myself included) don't even realize what they are saying and teaching their kids because so much is said to them without any thought. After all, this is how everyone learns, not just kids. I feel as if the power of speech is becoming a lost art.
Actions may speak louder than words, but words will always hold more meaning. I'm going to be more conscious of what I say not just to CookieYO and LittleYO, but to everyone in my life. I recognize and come to terms in my "old" age, no matter how hard I try and deny, we are all living by a script and follow a daily routine. Try not to get caught up in it. Stop and think before you speak!
I finally get it Dad!
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I remember the first time I heard my mom say to me "Do as I say, not as I do", because it took me a almost five minutes to figure out what she was talking about. Now a DaddyYO, here I am listening to another mother in the store say it to her kid just one day after I said it to LittleYo.
When did WORDS lose the power of intent? Over the generations words have slowly evolved into just words; a vocal backtrack to human speech with no meaning. Maybe that's why I dont trust anything anyone says! Parents (myself included) don't even realize what they are saying and teaching their kids because so much is said to them without any thought. After all, this is how everyone learns, not just kids. I feel as if the power of speech is becoming a lost art.
(Julius Caesar - Mark Anthony Speech)
Actions may speak louder than words, but words will always hold more meaning. I'm going to be more conscious of what I say not just to CookieYO and LittleYO, but to everyone in my life. I recognize and come to terms in my "old" age, no matter how hard I try and deny, we are all living by a script and follow a daily routine. Try not to get caught up in it. Stop and think before you speak!
I finally get it Dad!
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Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Stop, Look and Listen YO!
There has been a lot change for DaddyYO over the last year. Regardless of the situations being positive or negative, does it really matter? Change is good. I do in fact feel myself growing wiser and some say "more mature". However, I always believed, even as a kid, an older age does not constitute being more wise. Just ask littleYO. He reminds me everyday with his genius (genuine) responses.
DaddyYO: "What would you like to be when you grow up? "
LittleYO: "A kid"
Instinctively I always assume what my kids response will be before I ask. I was ready for any response on this question and still the response he gave caught me by surprise. I thought about his reply for a while. I usually think about what my kids say in response to my life-worn, tired, run-down sometimes parental canned questions. Yet, my kids comments help to breath life back into my own (once) youthful existence. Lets face it, my own thinking at 37 years old is a combination of subconscious/involuntary learned lessons and unbeknownst to me (until now) has made me less of a kid! wtf...I was robbed!
Age is a mechanic of the body to which our minds are governed. People/kids are simply acting their age by reacting off of each other; all day, everyday; for our entire lives. Pretty tiresome. We think about everything, analyze everything and talk about everything. At some point we need to replace/upgrade our own thought process with a new updated version of perspective. We can not be the same people we were in high school, college or 5 years ago. We all need to continue to grow and learn. Otherwise you might be among the many parents I see who lose themselves to their "old-selves" eventually turning into their own parents.
I see everything in life as a smaller sample of something larger than itself. For example, large crowds react similarly to the smallest cells in our own bodies. So by studying smaller samples of living organism we can understand larger populations. To better myself as a DaddyYO I thrive on understanding the emotional/physical context of my kids behavior and thoughts. I listen and try not to implement totalitarian control over my kids we instinctively do as parents. ( Do this!, Don't do that!, NO!). Our kids thoughts are no more or less important than our own; at any age. By just listening/communicating with my littleYO's has given me a tremendous new perspective on my own life and a youthful glimpse into my future. I am a better person because of this and revived!
Truth: Kids, are in fact, smarter than adults. Adults need to stop teaching all day, everyday and just listen. kids actions and comments will reveal genuine truth, honesty and love, all instinctively because I believe we are all born good people! Adults can not do this as well as kids because this ability withers away with age because of natural (environmental & social) adaptation.
So maybe age is a state in which we are conscious of being and we are all acting our age from 3 to 37 years old.....but what if youth is in fact something we can hold on to forever; even in old age??
Ask your kids " Describe DaddyYO and MommyYO in your own words." Adults only glimpse into their own true being is through their children's eyes; which is why parents are mostly yelling at them all the time!!! Not only is nothing is as it seems for an kid, adults are equally blinded. If all we do is teach our kids to listen, who is there to teach adults the same things....stop, look and listen to our littleYO's! It might be our only way into a youthful happy future because I'm still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.
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DaddyYO: "What would you like to be when you grow up? "
LittleYO: "A kid"
Instinctively I always assume what my kids response will be before I ask. I was ready for any response on this question and still the response he gave caught me by surprise. I thought about his reply for a while. I usually think about what my kids say in response to my life-worn, tired, run-down sometimes parental canned questions. Yet, my kids comments help to breath life back into my own (once) youthful existence. Lets face it, my own thinking at 37 years old is a combination of subconscious/involuntary learned lessons and unbeknownst to me (until now) has made me less of a kid! wtf...I was robbed!
Age is a mechanic of the body to which our minds are governed. People/kids are simply acting their age by reacting off of each other; all day, everyday; for our entire lives. Pretty tiresome. We think about everything, analyze everything and talk about everything. At some point we need to replace/upgrade our own thought process with a new updated version of perspective. We can not be the same people we were in high school, college or 5 years ago. We all need to continue to grow and learn. Otherwise you might be among the many parents I see who lose themselves to their "old-selves" eventually turning into their own parents.
I see everything in life as a smaller sample of something larger than itself. For example, large crowds react similarly to the smallest cells in our own bodies. So by studying smaller samples of living organism we can understand larger populations. To better myself as a DaddyYO I thrive on understanding the emotional/physical context of my kids behavior and thoughts. I listen and try not to implement totalitarian control over my kids we instinctively do as parents. ( Do this!, Don't do that!, NO!). Our kids thoughts are no more or less important than our own; at any age. By just listening/communicating with my littleYO's has given me a tremendous new perspective on my own life and a youthful glimpse into my future. I am a better person because of this and revived!
Truth: Kids, are in fact, smarter than adults. Adults need to stop teaching all day, everyday and just listen. kids actions and comments will reveal genuine truth, honesty and love, all instinctively because I believe we are all born good people! Adults can not do this as well as kids because this ability withers away with age because of natural (environmental & social) adaptation.
So maybe age is a state in which we are conscious of being and we are all acting our age from 3 to 37 years old.....but what if youth is in fact something we can hold on to forever; even in old age??
Ask your kids " Describe DaddyYO and MommyYO in your own words." Adults only glimpse into their own true being is through their children's eyes; which is why parents are mostly yelling at them all the time!!! Not only is nothing is as it seems for an kid, adults are equally blinded. If all we do is teach our kids to listen, who is there to teach adults the same things....stop, look and listen to our littleYO's! It might be our only way into a youthful happy future because I'm still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.
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Friday, July 20, 2012
Life-Delicate-Balance
A sense of guilt for not writing as much since CookieYO came into my happier life. I started to think by the time she is 16 years old, she will look back at this blog and see so many posts about LittleYO and very little posts about her. I started feeling guilty. I started digging deeper into my feeling of guilt rather than react by coming online and typing something great and special about my little girl. which she very much is.....
Its funny how feelings pre determine the thoughts which we base our decisions that predict our actions; which we are all measured and judged by in this life. The point of this blog is not only to show my kids down the road how much they mean to me but to chronicle my thoughts. To show them, after I am long gone, a path of thought that nobody else can teach to them like their DaddyYO- and they understand just by being my LittleYO's.
We learn our entire lives until the day we die. It never stops. We go to school, religion, play sports and learn lesson after lesson and POOF...we are educated. If we were the child of every professor, coach and priest we ever learned from - we all would be enlightened. Because of this parent-child bond we understand whats being taught and conceptualize everything more clearly because of less outside interference. Each thought is more pure; because of less interception/interference. This parent-child bond can not be duplicated by any teacher, religion or coach and so it goes...literally.
Over the last 6 months I've been trying to have more control over my thoughts; which has had a tremendous (positive) impact on my personal life. By thought-stopping Ive realized not only myself but everyone around me is on "auto pilot". Like people, the mind gets lazy and so we subconsciously create mental scripts for most situations so the mind can feel at ease with a routine and assume answers and conclusions.
The problem is the actions we make are half drawn conclusions based on inaccurate mental scripts/expectations to which we react and make very real. Basically everyone is crazy because they are reacting to something that does not exist only in their head. SCARY!
Control your thoughts, control your actions. Control your actions and your more in control of your life. For those who question all of this, keep questioning...maybe someday you will get it.
DaddyYO
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Its funny how feelings pre determine the thoughts which we base our decisions that predict our actions; which we are all measured and judged by in this life. The point of this blog is not only to show my kids down the road how much they mean to me but to chronicle my thoughts. To show them, after I am long gone, a path of thought that nobody else can teach to them like their DaddyYO- and they understand just by being my LittleYO's.
We learn our entire lives until the day we die. It never stops. We go to school, religion, play sports and learn lesson after lesson and POOF...we are educated. If we were the child of every professor, coach and priest we ever learned from - we all would be enlightened. Because of this parent-child bond we understand whats being taught and conceptualize everything more clearly because of less outside interference. Each thought is more pure; because of less interception/interference. This parent-child bond can not be duplicated by any teacher, religion or coach and so it goes...literally.
Over the last 6 months I've been trying to have more control over my thoughts; which has had a tremendous (positive) impact on my personal life. By thought-stopping Ive realized not only myself but everyone around me is on "auto pilot". Like people, the mind gets lazy and so we subconsciously create mental scripts for most situations so the mind can feel at ease with a routine and assume answers and conclusions.
The problem is the actions we make are half drawn conclusions based on inaccurate mental scripts/expectations to which we react and make very real. Basically everyone is crazy because they are reacting to something that does not exist only in their head. SCARY!
Control your thoughts, control your actions. Control your actions and your more in control of your life. For those who question all of this, keep questioning...maybe someday you will get it.
DaddyYO
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Monday, April 9, 2012
THE FAT SECURITY SYSTEM
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| On the boardwalk with LittleYO where I run everyday |
At what point do we say to ourselves " I made myself this way. I made myself fat by eating the wrong things for years" instead of coming up with excuses like "having kids will do that to ya" or "I don't have time" "work is busy"- After 70 days of P90x and cardio, I realized my mind and body, without me noticing, had formed this mutualistic relationship. When in fact ( and I have learned) they are two very different entities that should be behaving separately from each other; not controlled by one or the other.
I needed to break up this relationship between what my mind wanted to eat and what my hand reached for. It was overwhelming to realize this marriage between the two, like husband and wife. My mind, the wife and my hand, the husband. The husband reaching for whatever food the mind suggested. I have become a "physical hand pussy"- not being able to stand up to what my mind suggested via thoughts. I was taken over by bad habits and before ever lifting a weight or pressing play on the DVD workout program...I needed a game plan. A plan to outsmart a mind that knew me all too well. I needed to break into myself and rewire the hard drive.
Now that I noticed, It was scary the number of appearances my bad habits made through out my day ... I knew by just working out it will not be the, long term, solution. "I'm going to destroy this way of thinking". It wasn't going to be easy, as I realized my fat mindedness over the years and unbeknownst to me has been busy at work building layers upon layers of what I call a "FAT SECURITY SYSTEM" . In the beginning of my "journey" my eating habits impenetrable I couldn't change them- I craved and craved...nothing I ate was enough. The security was tight, and no good eating habits got in for weeks. The rate of excuses why I shouldn't work out and why french fries are actually good for you doubled even tripled. The harder I tried, the more excuses my body created.
Finally, I broke in...and got into my mind. I saw her. We looked at each other, it was an intense stare down - she knew and so did I...game on. At that moment she speared a thought of a bagel and cream cheese- lightly toasted with fresh tomato. Bitch!
Mind is scary place. The walls were thick almost sound proof, the floors made of gummy and the lights were strobe - it was difficult to see. She was trying to disorientate me. I knew this was just another layer of the FAT SECURITY SYSTEM my mind had created for this very day. The day I decided there will be no more french fries, no more five chocolate donuts nights or 4 slice pizza parties. I screamed it loud to deliver my message to her in person; it echoed...my mind was dizzy, my body drenched in sweat, my heart was 183 bpm. I was on mile 8 for the 4th time in 3 weeks. I had her against the ropes. She's human...I needed to push harder, faster, go for one more, don't stop ....or you will die. Repeat.
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| Before |
Calories in < calories out = weight loss
Control your mind, sometimes by force, and everything else will follow...but before you can do it for your family, you have to do it for yourself.
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Sunday, February 26, 2012
P90x
Found this draft... never posted it.
So with 37 days in P90x quickly became P53x! I have lost a total of 20lbs burnt a total of 6500 calories in a month. Its amazing what exercise can do for you. Physically and mentally. I'm reestablishing that relationship I had with myself when I was younger.
Its difficult to get started and everything I seem to do only frustrates me more i.e. from form, my balance and making time...coming up with excuses is the easy but dragging myself off the couch and making my body do something it doesn't want to...is a great way for getting back at myself for getting FAT to begin with. I show myself no mercy....I don't care what I say, do or feel...I will workout today. I will push myself harder than I did yesterday. Soon enough, my body will learn my new ways and ask for more, not less.
So with 37 days in P90x quickly became P53x! I have lost a total of 20lbs burnt a total of 6500 calories in a month. Its amazing what exercise can do for you. Physically and mentally. I'm reestablishing that relationship I had with myself when I was younger.
Its difficult to get started and everything I seem to do only frustrates me more i.e. from form, my balance and making time...coming up with excuses is the easy but dragging myself off the couch and making my body do something it doesn't want to...is a great way for getting back at myself for getting FAT to begin with. I show myself no mercy....I don't care what I say, do or feel...I will workout today. I will push myself harder than I did yesterday. Soon enough, my body will learn my new ways and ask for more, not less.
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
WORRY! Some new DaddyYO thoughts...
Being a Dad. Its a balancing act- 100 story high wire act, barefoot and no safety lines. The only thing separating yourself from reaching the other side is the confidence and your ability to believe, one way or another, you will make it to the other side...no matter what!
Than again, there are days where your left hanging in the middle of two buildings, no escape and you feel failure is inevitable. I've learned, as soon as you make failure a choice/option, can failing actually become a reality. The precursor to failure is worry.
I used to worry about losing my job, being a good dad, will my kids love me? Will they look up to me? respect me??...Now-a-days, I don't really worry about that anymore. As long as I love them as much as I do and do the right things as a father, husband and role model, success/happiness for my BUGS and myself is inevitable.
Four weeks ago, I caught a glimpse of me in the mirror. I felt like shit, I looked like shit. Three days after that I was at the Dr. office. I was asked to take my shirt off. "Shit! I'm so fucking FAT! How did this happen? " I said to myself in the vacant room waiting for the Dr to come in. At that very second something aligned in me. It was time for a BIG FAT change.
I was overweight, I asked the Doctor: "Can I have a heart attack? the Doctor responded: "Anyone can really have a heart attack"... So that is he's polite way of saying YES!. I was worried. "Thanks DOC for adding to my stress that is more inclined to kill me than my actual weight!" Ive recently realized so much time is spent on WORRYING! Its sickening, worrying is fantasy and is not real ... that is until it kills you!
We worry about our jobs, family to our health...what-a-waste of energy and time. I don't want to turn this into some ROCKY post! and the long story made short ...I started P90X, I'm running everyday and eating right. In 4 weeks, Ive lost 15 lbs and simply feel much better about myself and I'm just getting started. Ya see, exercising as a DaddyYO is not all about looking good as it was when I was younger. Now-a-days It's more about my LittleYO and CookieYO. I need to be around for them as they get older, so I can tell them NOT TO WORRY! FACT: Because nobody else will! From their teacher, coach, boss, girlfriend/boyfriend, AND DOCTOR!
....Will I pass my test? Will I make the team? Is she/he going to break up with me? Am I going to get fired? Am I going to have a heart attack!!!?? Listen closely....all these worries and outcomes... none of them matter, it never did (If someone only told me that when I was younger). Of all the lessons you learn in this life, one of the most important lessons is to not take life so seriously....take life as it comes because your worry is simply your own and its likely, in this self absorbed world, that nobody is paying ( or caring) as much attention to your actions as they are about their own. Just take your time, make serious decisions ( about your own love, eating, exercise, work habits etc) with the choices you're presented and everything else will follow for the better. Don't worry.
... and as "complicated" as we make life, is as complicated we can make our own happiness. Spend time balancing yourself, not relationships. Balance your thoughts, and their is no worry. Believe in yourself and your choices and you will happier than you could ever imagine.
Love DaddyYO
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Than again, there are days where your left hanging in the middle of two buildings, no escape and you feel failure is inevitable. I've learned, as soon as you make failure a choice/option, can failing actually become a reality. The precursor to failure is worry.
I used to worry about losing my job, being a good dad, will my kids love me? Will they look up to me? respect me??...Now-a-days, I don't really worry about that anymore. As long as I love them as much as I do and do the right things as a father, husband and role model, success/happiness for my BUGS and myself is inevitable.
Four weeks ago, I caught a glimpse of me in the mirror. I felt like shit, I looked like shit. Three days after that I was at the Dr. office. I was asked to take my shirt off. "Shit! I'm so fucking FAT! How did this happen? " I said to myself in the vacant room waiting for the Dr to come in. At that very second something aligned in me. It was time for a BIG FAT change.
I was overweight, I asked the Doctor: "Can I have a heart attack? the Doctor responded: "Anyone can really have a heart attack"... So that is he's polite way of saying YES!. I was worried. "Thanks DOC for adding to my stress that is more inclined to kill me than my actual weight!" Ive recently realized so much time is spent on WORRYING! Its sickening, worrying is fantasy and is not real ... that is until it kills you!
We worry about our jobs, family to our health...what-a-waste of energy and time. I don't want to turn this into some ROCKY post! and the long story made short ...I started P90X, I'm running everyday and eating right. In 4 weeks, Ive lost 15 lbs and simply feel much better about myself and I'm just getting started. Ya see, exercising as a DaddyYO is not all about looking good as it was when I was younger. Now-a-days It's more about my LittleYO and CookieYO. I need to be around for them as they get older, so I can tell them NOT TO WORRY! FACT: Because nobody else will! From their teacher, coach, boss, girlfriend/boyfriend, AND DOCTOR!
....Will I pass my test? Will I make the team? Is she/he going to break up with me? Am I going to get fired? Am I going to have a heart attack!!!?? Listen closely....all these worries and outcomes... none of them matter, it never did (If someone only told me that when I was younger). Of all the lessons you learn in this life, one of the most important lessons is to not take life so seriously....take life as it comes because your worry is simply your own and its likely, in this self absorbed world, that nobody is paying ( or caring) as much attention to your actions as they are about their own. Just take your time, make serious decisions ( about your own love, eating, exercise, work habits etc) with the choices you're presented and everything else will follow for the better. Don't worry.
... and as "complicated" as we make life, is as complicated we can make our own happiness. Spend time balancing yourself, not relationships. Balance your thoughts, and their is no worry. Believe in yourself and your choices and you will happier than you could ever imagine.
Love DaddyYO
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